Purr purr purr

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I am a Happy Kitty…

Days go by as I constantly work on creating work for myself, going on business meetings with potential clients, cook dinner for my husband, keep the apartment clean, go to classes, go to the gym and lay me down to watch me some movies and enjoy my opportune hours to choose to be lazy instead. I am getting better at laying around a little. I know that I am doing what I can to move things forward, so I don’t feel like I am wasting time or being lazy, and my husband has been in a better mood lately, and supported me in my failures, and cheered me on when I work towards something. I know it’s a 50/50 – Me allowing myself to treat myself (WHILE I CAN) and HIM being supportive and not giving me a jealous and slightly bitter attitude when I have had a nice relaxing day. This enables me to enjoy myself more and not be bitter either, when I do all the wifey housework things that was my nightmare to end up doing ever since I was a little girl, but I’ll do it for HIM. Because I love him, and I want to make things easier for him. That is kind of my contribution as I am not really contributing evenly financially.

Making him a packed lunch for him to pick up after school before work, keep the house clean and tidy so he can come home feeling relaxed and space out in peace. Cook him dinner to come home to at night after a 12 hour long day. Rub his back and sometimes his feet when he is exhausted. Give him a blow job before work, or before school to perk him up. Send him some lovely texts during the day that require no answer. Understanding that some nights after a whole day of school and work, and us not having seen each other, that he’ll not want to hang out, only some sex and cuddling, silence, and leaving him to do his own things, homework, Fantasy football, reading the news, masturbating, playing madden. Some HIM time. Keeping myself busy and happy, so he doesn’t have to worry about entertaining me .

It has gotten a lot better, in the beginning we had been apart in a long distance relationship for almost a year, not seeing each other in the Flesh – at all. Meaning NO SEX for either of us for that whole time, and communicating only via post, email, skype and texts. Our love lasted and grew stronger, and when I finally got here through an excruciating process, leaving my familiar and beloved Europe behind, my family, friends and my plans. For HIM. I wanted every second of the day with him, I wanted to squeeze every second for all the romance and intensity I could get, that I had longed for, that I had waited for. But it didn’t take long for him to start needing more space for himself, which broke my heart. It was a disappointment. I started doubting us. Yeah yeah, people are different, but I think that when you really love someone you’ll want to be with them all the time..bla bla bla…. but after a while, some passionate arguments, fights, I learned and came to accept that we are different, and love each other the same, on the same level, but a little differently. And He didn’t ask for much. He needed to get used to me too, having me there all the time, and me to him, our mood-swings, habits, buttons and laundry detergent. And we did. We do spend a hell of a lot of time together. He always chooses me. Hang out with friends, go out, stay behind at work with his coworkers drinking, -no. He comes home. To me. Cycles happily with the helmet I insisted he’d buy and wear, that makes him look like an idiot. To see, me. To hold me. And THAT’s what I want. It makes me purr.

I am glad and willing to push him out the door to hang out with friends more, and he is so positively surprised when I do. Of course!! Friends are so important. He doesn’t have friends on the level I do, not here, he’s not like me. But his buddies, are nice for him to have, so they can watch sports together and all those typical manly things. And the result is, which also pleases me, he misses me. And when he comes home he’s all over me. And I play casual and hard to get…ahhhh Im so in love! It’s sunday, and I am going to a party with some friends tonight. He’s been up since early this morning to catch every single football game. He’s exhausted from standing (!) in front of the TV, running back and forth to his fantasy football league on his computer all day. Now he’s snoozing away, and I look over at his chunky thighs and meaty buttocks… I love him. And he loves me. We are growing, we are learning, our love… is evolving. And as long as we are as passionate for each other as we are, because that is what this kitty needs, I will never give up.

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28 thoughts on “Purr purr purr

  1. I have been reading your blog for some weeks now, waiting for the right moment to comment – and having just finished reading that post, I know feel overwhelmed to write.

    I am newly married myself. Like you, we are young and passionate and still finding that balance between our love lives and our professional lives. But it is a fun challenge to undertake together and we know that no matter what, we will always have each other.

    What I am sensing from this post is a healthy and energetic shift toward being proactive in your own happiness. I think that it is complacent to say that our partner is making us feel, sad, angered, happy or thrilled. Sure, they have influence – a great deal of influence – over how we may be feeling, but it is up to us to own our own feelings and take responsibility for that. It is you, and only you, that can make yourself happy and, as I mentioned, from this post it would appear that that is exactly what you are doing.

    You should be very proud of how far you have come.

    Oh, and that is a very sexy picture by the way.

    Keep writing. You are very good.

    Our Adventure.

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    • Thank you so much..!
      What an incredibly helpful and great comment to receive. I am so happy to hear from you, and the fact that you have read what I am writing, in itself, is a great honor for me.

      I can’t seem to find a link to your blog, but I would love to see your journey as well..!

      You are right in everything you are saying, and I know it all to be true, but in practise, it isn’t always that easy… (as I’m sure you know.) But yes… both me and my husband are proactive both in our lives and in our relationship, we love progression and we love improving. AND EACH OTHER! πŸ˜€

      Im sooo happy you commented! And YES, I will keep writing. It really makes me wanna do it when you say that.. haha. Thank you again.

      Xxx

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      • Hi!

        You are more than welcome, and thank you for responding to me directly. I feel like a fan who just got to meet their favourite movie star.

        I am yet to get my blog up and running, although have many pieces ready to post once I muster the courage. I must admit I am very nervous about posting publicly but reading your blog had given me some Dutch courage! So as soon as I go live – as you are my inspiration you will be the first to know about it!

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      • I can’t wait!!!
        Well, it didn’t take too much bravery for me to blog this honestly, as I am doing so anonymously. But gosh, it has given me so much pleasure and great community! πŸ™‚

        Thank you so much for your funny and flattering words!

        Xxx LW

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  2. Argh! I’d started to type a long reply and… my phone ate it!
    I’ll try again when my computer is fixed!
    In the mean time: well done!!

    And also… Meow, purr, purr!
    That picture is HOT!

    XO

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  3. LW,

    You are making amazing progress in your heart and head! You two are in such a difficult and trying season with employment, school, life, marriage – all of these facets filled with challenges and life changes. Your writing has betrayed you to some degree in that your love for him and your marriage pours out of you. There is a distinct trend (in your articles) that shows tremendous progress and growth.

    In marriage, there is a letting go of the singular and the two come together to form a composite, singular unit. It is stronger than the individual yet only as strong as ezch person’s commitment to the unit. You are clearly heading in this direction (your husband isnt blogging, so we can’t read his heart) and your posts reveal this fact, even in the face of some of your outcries. You are doing well. Tonight is a good nignt. Revel in that fact, then pick up and keep moving!

    Proud of you!

    Mr. WC

    Btw, the pic is HOT! Internet pic or is that you?

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    • Today has been a glorious day! And I am so happy and in love πŸ™‚
      I am SO glad to hear that you think that, I wanted to do this, because, journaling has benefited me so much, looking back on my scribblings I find that my thoughts and ways have improved so much, and I hoped that after a month,
      I can go back and look at my earliest posts and go;
      -Ah, We’ve gotten so much better than this, and how stupid was that, and why did I do that, I’m better now… and so on.

      We are headed in that direction. Slowly, and with setbacks, but we are at least very self-aware. πŸ™‚

      Thank you again for commenting, and that is me on the pic! πŸ™‚

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  4. Purr purr indeed…! That is a foxy pic. Have been enjoying your posts for the past few weeks. I love your honesty, and it feels like you are writing straight from your gut, no censoring whatsoever, which I appreciate. It’s raw, imperfect, honest and funny. And sad sometimes. But I am glad to read that you are happy and that you are both doing well ! πŸ™‚ ❀ KG

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  5. I swear you tickle me, lol. Of course your relationship with your husband is totally different than mine was with William, but that’s perfectly ok. I do understand what you’re saying and I think it’s WONDERFUL!

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